I barely made it out without it killing me. It wouldn't have mattered even if I'd had my stories - it didn't even need to use its stories to overwhelm me. It was having such an easy time beating me, it spent the whole time talking.
I don't....I don't even know what I'm doing here anymore.
I can't defeat the Warden. I can't even defeat my own Shadow. I can't stop people from dying in the scenarios. I let a team die because I wasn't willing to force Sphinx to make the right choices. I can't break through this power restriction. Kim Dokja's gone. Uriel's gone.
...
...
...
I keep thinking that if I keep talking to you, you'll eventually wake up. But you're still asleep. And I don't know what else to do.
....maybe I can purchase it with the Magician....
Maybe it would be easier if I could just...
Don't even think about saying that word!
-- what the hell?
You won't listen to me any other way, so....I'm just gonna talk to you using Cloud System! If you don't want Han Suyeong to see it, you shouldn't have started thinking about doing...that! And I swear, if you try to buy that skill using the Magician I'll possess you and throw your phone into a lake!
You promised you would never do...that again, didn't you?! You promised Kim Dokja and Han Suyeong and everybody?! How could you even think about breaking that promise just because of the Warden and a Shadow?! Those are nothing compared to the things you've done before! That Shadow couldn't go through 1865 turns! That Shadow couldn't...stand up to Olympus or survive the Demon King Selection or make it to the Final Scenario or.....!
I survived all of those things because of my stories, which I can't use because of you, you jackass.
Well.
Well, kinda, yeah!
But....you said that the Shadow didn't even have to use its stories, so you would've lost anyway! So it's not because of that, isn't it?!
And it's not like I'm trying to stop your stories intentionally! I've been trying to stop my story from interfering with yours for months now, but....it just....does what it wants! B-but, while we're on the subject...why haven't you ever just USED it?! I understand if you hate me for possessing you, but are you really gonna let yourself die just to spite me?!
I'm not using your story.
Do you think because you've read my stories and you're some kind of fan of mine that I want your help? You're just another constellation, using my story for yourself. I would rather die than make a contract with you, and that's exactly what it would be if I used your story.
...
...yeah.
...yeah, I guess I kinda am.
I'm a lot closer to just being any other constellation than being like Kim Dokja, or, heck, even Uriel. I didn't need to read your story to survive. I just....liked it. I never interfered like any of the bad constellations did, but I still spectated your life and all the pain you went through for my own enjoyment. Just because...I thought it was a great story.
Fine.
Then...let's make a different kind of contract.
Use my story once. Use it to beat the shadow.
Then you can use the Hierophant on me immediately after. I won't try to stop you.
The Hierophant will -
Probably make me stop existing, yeah. If it's between that or you trying to use the Magician, it's an easy choice.
The idea of Han Suyeong waking up to find out you did that makes me sick to my stomach.
Fine.
Just this once, I'll use your story. Don't regret the terms. You set them yourself.
Day 76
I lost.
It wasn't even close.
I barely made it out without it killing me. It wouldn't have mattered even if I'd had my stories - it didn't even need to use its stories to overwhelm me. It was having such an easy time beating me, it spent the whole time talking.
I don't....I don't even know what I'm doing here anymore.
I can't defeat the Warden. I can't even defeat my own Shadow. I can't stop people from dying in the scenarios. I let a team die because I wasn't willing to force Sphinx to make the right choices. I can't break through this power restriction. Kim Dokja's gone. Uriel's gone.
...
...
...
I keep thinking that if I keep talking to you, you'll eventually wake up. But you're still asleep. And I don't know what else to do.
....maybe I can purchase it with the Magician....
Maybe it would be easier if I could just...
Don't even think about saying that word!
-- what the hell?
You won't listen to me any other way, so....I'm just gonna talk to you using Cloud System! If you don't want Han Suyeong to see it, you shouldn't have started thinking about doing...that! And I swear, if you try to buy that skill using the Magician I'll possess you and throw your phone into a lake!
You promised you would never do...that again, didn't you?! You promised Kim Dokja and Han Suyeong and everybody?! How could you even think about breaking that promise just because of the Warden and a Shadow?! Those are nothing compared to the things you've done before! That Shadow couldn't go through 1865 turns! That Shadow couldn't...stand up to Olympus or survive the Demon King Selection or make it to the Final Scenario or.....!
I survived all of those things because of my stories, which I can't use because of you, you jackass.
Well.
Well, kinda, yeah!
But....you said that the Shadow didn't even have to use its stories, so you would've lost anyway! So it's not because of that, isn't it?!
And it's not like I'm trying to stop your stories intentionally! I've been trying to stop my story from interfering with yours for months now, but....it just....does what it wants! B-but, while we're on the subject...why haven't you ever just USED it?! I understand if you hate me for possessing you, but are you really gonna let yourself die just to spite me?!
I'm not using your story.
Do you think because you've read my stories and you're some kind of fan of mine that I want your help? You're just another constellation, using my story for yourself. I would rather die than make a contract with you, and that's exactly what it would be if I used your story.
...
...yeah.
...yeah, I guess I kinda am.
I'm a lot closer to just being any other constellation than being like Kim Dokja, or, heck, even Uriel. I didn't need to read your story to survive. I just....liked it. I never interfered like any of the bad constellations did, but I still spectated your life and all the pain you went through for my own enjoyment. Just because...I thought it was a great story.
Fine.
Then...let's make a different kind of contract.
Use my story once. Use it to beat the shadow.
Then you can use the Hierophant on me immediately after. I won't try to stop you.
The Hierophant will -
Probably make me stop existing, yeah. If it's between that or you trying to use the Magician, it's an easy choice.
The idea of Han Suyeong waking up to find out you did that makes me sick to my stomach.
Fine.
Just this once, I'll use your story. Don't regret the terms. You set them yourself.